That Person.

THAT PERSON

I ache when I see him,

I ache when I can't see him

I'm miserable when he's here

and I'm miserable when he's not

I'm miserable when he smiles at me

and I'm miserable when he smiles at others

If he calls my name, I'm miserable

If he don't call my name, I'm miserable

As long as the earth doesn't swallow me up this instant,

I will continue to be miserable

but I would rather have him here

Then I can act like I can't stand him

That would be better than not having him here

and yes, I'll like him

no matter where he goes

no matter what women come to his life

even if I'm not a part of his life anymore

because to me if it meant to be then it won't matter

Jodoh

Jodoh itu rahsia Allah,

sekuat mana kita setia,

sehebat mana kita menunggu,

sekeras mana kita bersabar,

sejujur mana kita menerima dia,

Jika Allah S.W.T tidak menulis JODOH kita bersama dia, kita tetap tidak akan bersama dengannya.

Hati aku milik Allah, hati dia pun milik Allah

Jadi hanya Allah yang boleh ubah hati dia

To dear That Guy!

For a very long time, nothing seemed fun to me from the moment I opened my eyes. But now, whenever I would turn my head, there would be someone I’d see who’d lift my spirits. What was I? I didn’t dare to hope for anything. No matter where I went, If that person was there, that was enough for me. Because even I didn’t see him for a little while, I’d be as happy to see him again as if I hadn’t see him for a century or even a millennia. That was enough for me. But was that hoping for that much to prevent me from seeing him. When just seeing him was enough.

Yes, I like him

No matter where he goes

No matter what women come to his life

Even if I’m not a part of his life anymore

doa buatmu sahabat

“Ya Allah, tika Kau hadiahkanku sahabat, Kau jadikanlah hatiku bersyukur atas kurniaanMu.. Kau jadikanlah hatinya berlapang dada menerimaku..
Ya Allah, tika Kau hadiahkanku sahabat, Kau jadikanlah sahabatku ini sebagai teman seperjuanganku, peniup semangat juangku.. yang saling membantu memikul amanah dakwah agamaMu..
Ya Allah, tika Kau hadiahkan aku sahabat, Kau jadikanlah hubungan ini disemai atas keredhaanMu.. Teguhnya atas cinta padaMu.. Dilindungi dari segala maksiat & hal-hal yang melalaikan dari mengingatiMu..
Ya Allah bahagiakanlah hatiku dan hati seluruh sahabatku dengan cinta kepadaMu..
~penghargaan buat insan yg bergelar sahabat.. cinta sahabat demi redhaNya..~”

—	Mujahidah Fisabilillah (facebook)

tadi

abis je makan td aku terasa nak on9 skype n fb

rupanya takdir buat aku bukak skype

so i can speak to her

i really need that

so i know she's done well there

i really100x need that

aku rindu die sgt..

bile tgk muka die

dgr suara die

aku rasa mcm nk nangis

tp aku tahan..

i just wanna look brave

tak nak nampak lemah kat mata die

i wish she could be here beside me

dah dekat raya

hai

asalammualaikum

aku ada kat kg sekarang. ada kat kedah. busan. sekarang malam tp mata x lelap2 jugak.

dah nak raya. yeah.. :( x de feeling nak raya langsung. haha

ary rabu yg lepas terima mesej drpd farah my roommy

"agaklaa, nnty gonna miss you guys kot, yg selalu ejek n gurau sme2.. malam ni free? mkn n lepak sme2 jom, ajak nad skali"

our senior mr. hafidzuddin send her this. kitorg dgr cer & riwayat hidop die yg bg aku lebih menyayat hati drpd hidop aku. rasa bersyukur jugak. rupanya ada yg lagi teruk. sebelum ni x pernah rasa bersyukur but after dgr cer die rasa lebih2 bersyukur. thankz abg hafidz for the story, fries, and teh o ais. uhukz! msty lepas ni rindu abg hafidz ++. next year u r not gonna be here anymore. so sad :(

ur bro je huzaier(bujey) je ade. x best coz die x rapat dgn kitorg mcm abg, yg blh dianggap mcm abg sendiri. sy berharap abg sy blh jd mcm abg hafidz n relationship kitorg blh jadi mcm abg hafidz n bujey.. sweet sgt :P

abg hafidz u r really a sweet n nice guy, i hope u will get ur happiness n i hope u will get ur own "fairytale"(live happily ever after). biarlah u always be like the tyme i know u, x nk nnty bile jumpa blk dah jd voldermort. sdey ny, if that happen.

RAMADAN!!

Ramadan kali ini aku nak jadikan Ramadan paling bermakna. Eventhough aku tak tau lagi mcm mana nak buat. Tp serius itu yang aku nak buat.

Aku tak nak Ramadan yang hanya tukar rutin harian kepada tak makan and minum je.
Aku tak nak Ramadan yang berlandaskan bazar Ramadan semata-mata.
Aku tak nak Ramadan yang belum habis lagi dah fikir raya.
Aku nak cari erti hidup aku.

Erti kenapa aku hidup? Kat hati aku kosong, macam tak ade yang mengisi. Bukan nak diisi dengan orang untuk dicintai & so on. BUKAN! Tp untuk isi dengan erti hidup yang masih tercari-cari & teraba-raba. Gaya orang butalah sekarang, tak ada tongkat. Sebab erti tu tak jumpa lagi. Sebelum aku mati biarlah aku jumpa erti tu dulu.

the man who want to change his life on 12th hour dies on 11th

Allah yang pegang hati hamba-Nya. Petunjuk & hidayah tu Allah yang bagi. Mungkin sebab hati aku ni keras & hitam sgt, kepala aku made of stone>> then hidayah tu ssh nak dapat. Ke sbb before this aku yang tak pernah nak cari. (entahlah) And maybe aku ingat diri aku ni 'white person' sangat, padahal jangan kata putih, kelabu pun tak nampak. Kelam dari 'Black person' agak nya diri aku ni.